Whose love ?

Been over analyzing since yesterday...

But I've come to the conclusion that

..i really do need to start thinking about myself

So here's what i'll do love

..blame myself cause I always fall so easily

Cause you the one thing I desperately need, -love.

The one feeling I don't wanna be without..

Beginning to feel like this is a personal issue within myself..

My heart won't settle..

My mind won't stop questioning, -love

My body will continue to fall victim of your touch..

You see because

It's you that I love..

It's you I fell for..

You whom I though would be the one to understand me, -love

Don't push me away

I just wanna find you again, -love

The right love..

My right love...

A love that won't tell me --- "you need to act like you don't care"

Cause I'm doing too much...

Understand that

I

LOVE,

Hurt,

Care deeply for you -love

Non-stop playback through my head.

Does he really want me to act like I don't care ?

Cause that leaves me with the impression that

maybe..

it's

you

that

don't

care

Maybe it's you that's afraid....

I'll do me a favor

I'll take your bullshit advice

& act like I don't care..

See where it leaves me.............

Free love ain't real love

Cause if I was paid $$$

I wouldn't need you, -love

I'd buy love till I didn't need love

So much love, I wouldn't need yours, -love

Sadly in love

How is this feeling ever right..

I love it but I hate feeling like this at times.

Overwhelmed by sadness

So eager for a change..

The dumbest shit keep happening

&& i keep setting myself back.

The one thing I want more than anything else in this world.

I fear I might never get it..

fuck this nigga

The sudden emptiness I feel when you are not around can at times be unbearable.

Flaw-full

I tend to over analyze things.

That might be a flaw of mine.

I tend to take in everything everyone says to me.

That might be a flaw of mine.

I don't make mistakes.

I might not be human.

I cry when I'm sad and frustrated.

I'm only man.

I crave so deeply to be accepted by my parents.

Everything I do to them is wrong

FUCK THIS

FUCK THEM

Day 1 - TRINIDAD.

So our flight delayed but we arrived safe. First stop we went to see my grandma! She look so Trini-fied. She also has the cutest little puppy. I told my mom before we left i wanted a puppy to take back home, Im on my own mission to get one!! My dad might be the blow and curve the whole puppy thing but who knows!? At first I didn't really even wanna come but im here so as my sister said just make the best of it. Trying not to use any flat irons in my hair, also said no soda but i definitely drank soda last night.

Trying not to think about Timmy too much because if i do, ill miss him ohdee. I missed him more last night than I do now. All i wanna do is sop mop o kop e my face off, like isn't that what vacas are about? will update later on.